失憶症

上次去唱歌時，其中一個女孩子點了兩首和失憶的歌曲。梁靜如的失憶，蔡建雅的失憶症。什麼時候會寧願失去記憶呢？

假使記憶消失，在生命中產生的空白，要拿什麼填補呢？話說回來，若餘生只剩記憶寥以憑弔，就好比白先勇的台北人裡，無力挽回上海輝煌一時的過往雲煙。假如沒有罹患失憶症，也許無法從這般的記憶裡掙脫吧？台北人，是白將記憶陳釀、發酵之後的微醺。

忘記吧，好像從來不曾來過。

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Midnight. Not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory. She is smiling alone.
In the lamplight the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan.
Memory - all alone in the moonlight. I can dream of the old days
Life was beautiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.

Every street lamps seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and a streetlamp sputters and soon it will be morning
Daylight - I must wait for the sunrise. I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too.
And a new day will begin.
Burnt out ends of smoky days
the stale cold smell of mon@ing.
A streetlamp dies
another night is over
another day is dawning.
Touch me - it's so easy to leave me. All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun.
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.

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